Long distance love can be maddening at times. But with a little faith and a whole lot of sincerity, love would take over and cross oceans, bridging limitations and uniting hearts. (For you, St_____. I miss you so damn much.)
My Heart Speaks
Let my words bridge the distance between us Every letter, every space, every nuance of expression Conveys feelings, numbering a multitude A hundred, a thousand, a million; too many to mention Each one intense-pulsating with life, moving with passion Let my words banish the times spent in isolation Dry up our tears of loneliness, warm our freezing souls Melt the icy coldness of our hearts; revive our spirits
Free us, so we can embrace eternity, entwining our paths Let my words calm your weary heart, assure you of tomorrow Bring light to your days, and be the sunshine behind your smile Words, though nothing more than a jumble of letters and spaces Are all we have at this moment-whether spoken or written Conveyed through the softness of this voice or the dexterity of my mind For now, my words alone can open the doors for us And set our minds, unite our lives en route to the path of understanding
An understanding that belies reason, transcending meaning Making you see beyond your fears and apprehensions Telling you how my heart stays true though I am not before you Soothing your heart and mine, and banishing the loneliness of the years Let my words take presence and paint the promise of love Color our somber gray world a blazing red and orange Let my words be the loving kiss to lull you to sleep Every night that I am not there to be by your side
These words...these words...Are all that is given to us These words...these words...They are my freedom They set my feelings in stone, so waste them not Take them, absorb them, let them pierce your heart and mind As you are lead to understanding Understanding that true love is what I have for you The kind of true love more than any word I can say, That kind of love so true nowhere else you can find.
I've had it with pain brought on by unrequited love. Though i rise up time and time again, the death i had to go thru every time my heart breaks anew cannot be denied.
Ballad of the Broken Heart
Where once there was love Only ashes remain Carried by the wind Transformed into dust No trace of distinction Or a hint of the beauty That once existed In the image that is yours An unforgettable face I engraved So lovingly in my soul
Where once there was trust Only uncertainty abides A vast ocean of blackness Littered with broken dreams Moving with the current A rhythm of deafening emptiness Lamenting through pursed lips Shrieking loudly in silence A distinct sound heard from the depths Of many a clamoring voices A million and one questions Raised high to the heavens But not a single one answered
Where once there was you and I Only the ghosts of our past linger Traces of your smile hovering Flitting in and out of consciousness That yields helplessly to the call of lunacy Adamantly refusing to be engulfed In these memories that taunt my being Though I clearly remember how the sun had looked On those days I lovingly beheld its reflection As it shone brightly through your soulful eyes Never ever wanting to be buried Beneath what came before yesterday Or what could possibly come tomorrow As I listen to the crying, dying voice Of this heart so profoundly shattered
Buna, my white cat, died mysteriously many years ago. Though some people can't understand why there are people like me who get too attached to pets, i only have this to answer, "Love is love and does not change regardless of whom or what you give it to."
The lights have gone out for Buna.
Of this, I am particularly sure. Although I have no way of proving it, I remain steadfast. The overwhelming dread and melancholy that has been nagging me for days is enough to confirm my suspicion.
The last time I remember calling out to her was three days ago. She didn't come. That night, upon returning home from work, I searched for her again. I combed every lawn and bush in the entire street where I live, hoping to somehow catch a glimpse of her pristine white fur. But there were only the shadows cast by the trees and tall grass as they danced under the faint light of the crescent moon.
The next morning, I decided to stop hoping. It was then that an inexplicable fear swept over me again. The uncontrollable thumping of my heart overshadowed what little hope I had left. With deep sorrow, I resigned myself to the inevitable truth: Buna would never come home.
At that moment, I could feel her life slowly slipping away.
And that night, as though in lamentation, the heavens sympathized with me; it cried. While the rain was drenching the world outside, I envisioned Buna as she desperately clung to her last remaining breaths.
Through my sadness, I managed to utter a brief prayer, asking that she yield without having to experience so much pain. Though it killed me, I had asked for her to give up her fight and embrace her fate.
I knew my prayer was heard. "It would not be long now," I thought to myself. Buna's suffering was about to come to an end. Finally.
Weakly, I got out of bed and went to the window facing our lawn. As I looked out, the world was reduced to a hazy blur of images and colors moving rhythmically along with the beat of the raging wind.
Somewhere through the din of the roaring downpour, while life continued to churn despite the uninterrupted wailing of the sky, Buna, at long last, gave up her battle and breathed her last.
With unwavering grace, she closed her beautiful green eyes, never to open them again.
I wrote this poem more than five or six years ago. Inspired by Seong Yeon, my Korean student who was then only 9 or 10 years old, this embodies how i see my role as a teacher/tutor.
The Candle
Look up my child and behold this visage before you. My eyes unveil a threshold that only a few men knew. Its twists and turns would lead to valleys inside my head, Where wisdom flows, knowledge grows, and dreams rise from their beds.
My voice would then be your torch; my hands serve as thy steed. From this acumen the words would spill to fill your need. As you bask in wonder, your mind would move to greatness, Shedding light to your strengths, defeating your weaknesses.
What you thought was not there, reveals itself to you. Giving the force you need to do what you should do. Immense courage lies at the back of trepidation. When you say you "can't", that settles your limitation.
So little angel, have faith in my understanding. Revel in the excellence my intellect can bring. With my careful guidance as your friend, as your mentor; Your triumph is my reward. My patience thy shelter.
Riding the trains here during rush hours, especially in the morning, is a comedic hell of sorts. Written four or five years back, this poem reflected my daily struggle and musings during those days when i jostled my way to work almost every single work day.
On the Train
The minute I got on the train, No one was there who was not sane. Of men and women, strangers all, Whose faces bore no trace of pain.
Not a hint of joy or sadness. A glint of fear or loneliness. Yet underneath their worries hide. Each one on the brink of madness.
Life has its ways for every man, And we strive as best as we can To get a glimpse of the sunrise, While some waited, the others ran.
And there we were headed somewhere. As to where not one seemed to care. Of one thing we were all aware, Hope awaits us when we get there.
Obviously, our planet is on the verge of a major decline in terms of the current state of our natural resources. Sadly, most of us still turn a blind eye at the destructive ways we deal upon nature and continue to live like we own the world. Things may have made a turn from bad to worse, but it's not yet too late...
The Last Raindrop
The last drop of rain has finally fallen. A faint whisper so clear amidst polluted skies. Floating to a tune, bittersweet yet solemn. Man closed his eyes and witnessed not her demise.
Softly, she lay in the arms of the noon breeze. Cradled like a baby, sweet and innocent. Her mother wailed along with the burning trees; Cries were made to the heavens, strong and fervent.
Although they were heard by creatures great and small, Man was deaf and continued his ways supine. He mused at his brilliance, a god above all. Faultless in his ways too perfect and sublime.
The day comes when he is thrown from his pedestal. Along with this world he had claimed to be his. The last drop of rain purer than a crystal Is the mountains' farewell, nature's final kiss.
In silence, I waved goodbye and watch her fall. The river bared her bosom and received her. Engulfed in black filth--her innocence and all. Gone to this world; gone with man. Together.
Written during another stressful day at work many years back, another poem of mine depicting my longing for some reprieve from life's usual challenges.
Whatever I Fancy
The hands of time are racing for midnight; By now the sun has made its way back home. The darkness has spread its wings and took flight. Swiftly, it swept across the sky alone.
As I trudge through the woods cloaked in stillness, The fireflies flitted along with each stride. I moved on unawares, my eyes listless, Without a hint of the secrets I hide.
This world knows not whatever I fancy. In the light of day, I showed not my face. Nothing more I want than tranquility. Hence, to be free from winter's embrace. So there I will go where many stars dwell, And tears are made into pearls as they fell.
Anger was rising and i was left with no choice but to hold it in...I penned this several years ago at the office, as i tried to refocus my mind on my work and away from the hassles of that day.
The Cliff
The heat is definite Rising from within.
Seething with rage; cloaked in sin. Murderous thoughts swirling Through a confusing haze.
Slowly gravitating To this soul's rotten maze
A clandestine whisper Passing gently in silence.
As the fire burns higher, The more I deny its presence.
Once patience is consumed And reason stands doomed, The cliff poses a threat; I tether at is edge.
With the darkness all set And thinking no further...
I plunge forth.
My father has always been a stranger to us. But despite his eccentricities and unlikable ways, i know deep inside he loves us so. He just has a different way of expressing it i suppose. I just hope that in the future he doesn't regret his decision to deliberately distance himself from us and stay cold.
A Man Sits Under the Tree
A man sits under the tree Staring into infinity, Watching his dreams passing by Like puffy clouds across the sky.
A man sits under the tree And he spoke of his life story, But no one cared to listen Soon, his words were all forgotten.
A man sits under the tree He felt desperate and lonely, For he never shared his heart; So from us he has stayed apart.
A man sits under the tree He never knows what he should be, Sitting there for all his life Having fought none of his own strife.
A man sits under the tree I feel him living inside me, My one and only father My own flesh. My blood. A stranger.
Another piece written at work as i was swamped with tons of tasks. Taking out the stress prompts me, as always, to write poems of sadness or something worse. I really couldn't tell why my mind meanders to dark realms when i'm pooped out or anxious to the core. But it does help me a lot in terms of de-stressing myself.
Existencia Pathetique
It only takes a second to open one's eyes, Yet man sometimes lives an entire lifetime of lies. A false existence, a world of his creation; Where everything seems real but all are illusions.
Whatever can be lofty, whatever is grand. But in the end nothing can be worth more than sand. Anyone and everyone flying to the stars; The weary hands of time have traveled long and far.
This concrete labyrinth we live in is endless. With each breath we move on, exhausted and listless. The horizon changes with each passing minute; We tumble here and there, doing what seems right and fit.
Endless is it not, but is this the truth we seek? Of what use is greatness if the spirit is weak. Alas! We are merely flotsam riding the wave, Drifting in confusion that only death can save.
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